14 ...

... weeks now.

I'm still fucking tired. I want to go home and sleep. I don't have my pillow at work otherwise I'd try and sleep here. So much for that idea.

I was hoping to be able to talk with Michael via email today but it doesn't look to be likely. It's bullshit.

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