New Morning, A New Day

I heard "Without You" on the video music channel (not to be confused with what MTV and MTV2 USED to be), and found myself in love with them all over again.  Two of my favorite songs are "Without You" and "Miss You Love."  The links for the videos and the lyrics are below.  I hope you enjoy them as much as I do. Without You (Live) Miles Away There's hopeless smiles brighter than mine And I need for you to come and go Without the truth falling out. Old incisions refusing to stay Like the sun through the trees on a cloudy day You brighten my life like a polystyrene hat But it melts in the sun like a life without love And I've waited for you so I'll keep holding on Without You(2X) Telephone Socially scared and impaired If the trees will bloom the wind can blow Without the fruit falling out Old incisions refusing to stay Like the sun through the trees on a cloudy day You brighten my life like a polystyrene hat But it melts ...

It's strange to have ex-boyfriends on one's social networking page.  I suppose I'm one of the strange ones.  Of the few serious relationships I've been in (including my current as a wife), only one boyfriend isn't on my friends list.  I'm not losing sleep over it, if that's what one wonders.  I do see if they're on this networking site, but maybe only once a year. The first love of my life is on my friends list.  Though things were tough and quite rocky toward the end, we managed to scrape up what was once a good friendship, and reform that friendship.  We're both happily married and have children close in age.  His oldest daughter is less than 14 days younger than my only daughter. He instant messaged me on this networking site to just chat.  I have no problem with this.  I found it odd that he IM'ed me first; he rarely does this.  Either way, I was happy to chat (I was already chatting with an old friend from 12 or so years ago)....

When I was in high school, this was one of my favorite songs.  It's from the soundtrack for the movie Disturbing Behavior.  Awesome song. The Fly's - Got You Where I Want You Hey what's the point of this Hey what's your favorite song Maybe we could hum along I think you're smart You sweet thing Tell me your name I'm dying here Ooh got you where I want you Ooh got you where I want you Oh yeah Hey maybe just a smile Oh hey do you know that I can dance Could we talk for a while I think you're smart You sweet thing Tell me your sign I'm dying here Ooh got you where I want you Ooh got you where I want you Oh yea Ooh got you where I want you I want you bad I think you're smart You sweet thing Tell me your name I'm dying here Ooh got you where I want you Got you where I want you YEAH Got you where I want you I want you Want You Got you where I want you Walking around screaming at you in my head, "Pleas...

This song can get me pumped for anything .  Video and lyrics below. Faint - Linkin Park "Faint" I am a little bit of loneliness a little bit of disregard Handful of complaints but I can’t help the fact that everyone can see these scars I am what I want you to want what I want you to feel But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you, to just believe this is real So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do Face away and pretend that I'm not But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got [Chorus] (I can't feel the way I did before) (Don't turn your back on me) (I won't be ignored) (Time won't heal this damage anymore) (Don't turn your back on me) (I won't be ignored) I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident Cause you don't understand I do what I can but sometimes I don't make sense I am what you never wanna say but I've never had a doubt It's like no matter...

There's something to be said about taking a long, relaxing bath in the middle of the night, without hearing, "Mommy, whatcha doin'?" or "Can I watch tv in your room?" or "Where's Daddy? [ at work, honey ]. I ran it a little hotter than I wanted to, but it felt great on my knee.  I woke up with it really stiff this morning, and the hot water soothed it better.  It's not nearly as stiff as it was earlier in the day. I decided to not work on my story today.  For starters, I stayed up with Bella after serving her banana oatmeal this morning (8:30) after getting only five hours of sleep ( I tried getting to sleep earlier, but it wasn't happening) .  I put in Guitar Hero World Tour and started a solo career.  After a few hours of that, I put in Rockband (better set list).  In an attempt to remain awake, I brewed a fresh pot of coffee and drank about 8 of the 12 cup servings it brewed.  I also have another cup of coffee sitting right in front ...

I'm trying to write a story.  I've been working on it for several years now and it's be re-written many times, added to many times.  One of the elements I'm adding is the classic American muscle car and trucks.  So far, I only have two classic vehicles; one of each.   One character is driving a 1968 Dodge Charger.  It's black with white leather interior (or whichever is true to the time when manufactured). The other is slightly customized.  It's a 1968 Chevy truck.  I've no idea the model; I could use some help on this part.  It's black with red, orange, blue, and purple flames along the side and deep red (crimson) leather interior. Feel free to expand more on these.  I'd love to have a peek into your passion for these amazing cars and trucks.  Any information is really appreciated.  Thank you so much! Some things I'd like to know to make this more believeable are: How does it make you feel when you turn t...

I've started re-typing my story. It's 40+ pages right now and it will only get longer (I hope) after making the changes I want. I figure if I do about ten pages of typing a day, I can get it where I need it in about a week. I've got a general outline, including an epilogue (to follow the introduction I made). It looks promising. I cut Bella's hair yesterday. She's been wanting it short, so I gave her a bath, washed her hair and then cut it off. Below are before and after pictures. Before: After: She loves her new haircut. Patrick tells me he thinks she looks like an adult, only smaller. I'm proud of myself for this haircut. It's difficult to cut a child's hair and difficult to cut super curly hair. But, I did both and I have the even lines I need. Woot!!

My daughter, Belladonna, talks in her sleep. She's also pretty good at telling me about bad dreams that she's had just moments before. Last night was no different. She woke up from a bad dream last night. I heard her call for me over the monitor and rushed to her room. She was laying on her bed, feet under the pillow, snuggling her special pink blanket (made just for her) and a smallish Pooh Bear quilt. I asked her to tell me about her dream. She said her animals were taken by a human; a "chocolate" man named Gabriel who's been following her. She said that he has two dragons: a silver one and a gold one. She says her green dragon, Gorbash (points to your House if you can remember where that name orignates), will help her. I told her that if she returns to the Land of Dreams, she can go back and get her animals from the human and that Mommy can help her from that place. After some kisses and "Mommy, I forgot something..." I left her room and attem...

Almost since we moved here, Bella's been crawling into bed with us in the mornings. Today, was nothing new. I have vague memories of her climbing in, snuggling up to me and throwing her left arm and leg over me. I wasn't sure if I dreamed it or not. Either way, I thought it was kind of sweet. Thing is, she only ever climbs in on my side of the bed; never my husband's. At some point, she got up and went into the living room while Patrick got ready for work. He woke me up around 8:30 (when my alarm for him went off), saying I should probably move to the living room couch. Most mornings, I get up with Bella and we go to the living room for some Phineas and Ferb. I get her some breakfast and then I pass out on the love seat. She asked for a movie and went searching for one. I asked her for the tv remote and PS3 controller; she came back saying she wanted to watch Twilight. She'd picked up New Moon, but she didn't care. She wanted to watch it. I'm one of t...

My tax refund showed up a couple of weeks ago. It was nearly $4K. We opened a new bank account here in town with it, to make things much easier (especially deposits and such). Thing is, with the bills we've started here, and paying off a couple of things, it's dwindled to barely $700. We still need to pay the trash this month (roughly $20) and I need to get in touch with my student loans to do the [first] payment of roughly ($240). I don't want to get behind on that. There's also the debt I've got with Grantham still. Last time I checked, that balance was to the tune of $1,500. I'd really like to get that debt off my back. There's also my credit card through my Navy credit union. The amount isn't so bad; it's less than what I owe Grantham. I'm sure that once I get those two items paid off (once I'm working, that is), my credit score will have improved. Hopefully, the only recent negative thing will be the current student loan I'l...