A friend of mine left a comment on a recent blog saying that it's no wonder I haven't broken down yet. She said that I've been through a lot lately. This could be true (I'm not discrediting her) but I see it as me just living my life, dealing and handling what's been given to me. I know that the people who count have the faith in me that I need. When I was in boot camp, I was being strong for all those girls who were away from their families for the first time. They'd cry and sob and cry some more, everyday wondering if they'd made the right choice. Every time, I was there, helping them through it. I'd been away from my family before (five months after graduation) and was just fine then. I didn't cry during those five months. I suppose, while in boot camp, when I thought it was safe, I broke down a bit and cried; I missed my mother and my friends. I was actually really fucking disappointed that they didn't write as often as they said they would.
I wish I knew how to keep myself from overreacting! So no real advice there but plenty of empathy... Glad to know you're doing okay. Things may not be quite as well here, but at least the new baby is swimming along happy as a clam. That's something.
ReplyDeleteTake care of yourself. I got the message about the car seat; I figured that's what was going to happen so no worries... my mom doesn't know how to not obsess over things.