Appointment with Dr. Slali & PPD

I've got it today at 6pm with her. I hope things go well. Once sessions are started, I'm hoping for no meds. I'm hoping something works.
Now, I thought that, with PPD, it only happened/occured within the first six months of having your baby. Treated or untreated, I thought it would go away and not fester. Belladonna's 16 months old now. These thoughts and images.. I've had them since we brought her home that November afternoon. Were those signs of PPD? What about anxiety [disorder]? What's the difference betweenn anxiety and anxiety disorder? I've never actually dealt with a "mental" illness so I'm full of questions.

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